A quick break from Strive for Five for some good news

The nine-month scans were clear!

And I’m so excited to tell you, I didn’t even make you open the email to find out!

I’m both relieved by the scans and feeling more confident in my ability to be tuned into how my body is feeling.

Starting to think about increased scanxiety as a function of my ego had a seriously calming effect. Your ego can drum up all the scanxiety it wants to try to protect you from being wrong; but “having a feeling” in the face of a recurrence isn’t a particularly meaningful consolation prize.

That’s not to say I wasn’t feeling any scanxiety at all (it’s still scary, and reasonably so) but between the ego theory and the stars people were shooting my way, altogether I felt pretty good.

The scans were bookended by important Working with Cancer meetings - one on Tuesday, two today - each of went well. So, between clear scans and completed meetings, I am breathing a massive sigh of relief.

Still plenty to do before the weekend comes, including processing the adrenaline I can still feel coursing through my veins. But looking forward to getting past the anxiety and back into peaceful steps forward.

Thank you all so, so much for the texts, the loves, and the stars you sent my way. Support changes outcomes; and I am convinced you’ve been a part of changing mine.